Tuesday, August 20, 2019

I am...Mrs. Fraser




I am…


small-town sports, a life in the country and the desire to be a good girl

two younger sisters, who really know me and love me anyway


riding horses bareback with my cousins and picking vegetables
from my grandparents’ garden 


domino games and stories around an old kitchen table in Oklahoma 


shopping in a Ford Crown Victoria piloted by my lead-footed grandmother 


Drury College, where I learned about Alice Walker, the secrets of ПBФ,
how to live with roommates, and that the world is much bigger than Cassville, Mo.


Ryan, who knows I don’t like to talk when I first wake up,
who loves me even though I don’t like to cook, and who every day tells me
how pretty and smart I am, even on days I’m not.


Macauley, a junior with his own car and a job and the start of his own life,
with a clever sense of humor and a kind, sensitive heart,
my sunshine when skies are grey


I am…


sweet tea and chocolate milk, chips and guacamole 


pets on the furniture


puffy, comfy white couches, ironstone plates and pitchers,
chippy white furniture, burlap and linen, mismatched silverware and old photos,
flea market finds and treasures that make me smile.


a tattered teddy bear bought with my birthday money
in Eureka Springs, Arkansas, when I was 8


tightly folded notes passed between teenage boys and girls
in class and church


photos and scrapbooks and a project always in the works.


books on my nightstand and magazines on the floor


sleeping late on weekends (especially when it rains)
in a bed with lots of covers and feather pillows


dark blue eyes and my dad’s olive skin,
black-framed glasses when I read or watch TV.


jeans and ankle boots, lots of black, hair that always ends up in a messy ponytail,
Toms and a Piko.


I am…


“Be kind, for everyone you meet is fighting a hard battle.” (John Watson)


“Everyone you will ever meet knows something you don’t.” (Bill Nye the Science Guy)


“Let it be…let it be…There will be an answer…let it be.” (The Beatles)

“Grief, I’ve learned, is really just love. It’s all the love you want to give, but cannot.
All that unspent love gathers up in the corners of your eyes, the lump in your throat,
and in that hollow part of your chest…Grief is just love with no place to go.” (Jamie Anderson)





15 comments:

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  2. I love the Beatles, especially their song Hey Jude!
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  3. I really liked the quotes that you used at the end

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  4. I am from a small town as well. I loved playing volleyball and football there.

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  5. I can relate to the pets on the furniture thing

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  6. Hi! I love the part about buying the teddy bear with your allowance money. When I was five, I desperately wanted a pair of high top Lelly Kelly sneakers (If you don't know what those are they're basically just really glitzy converse), but I wanted to buy them ALL by myself. So eventually, I did. It took me several months but eventually I had the most obnoxious sneakers you'll *ever* see.

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  7. Hello! I also have two sisters, so I definitely relate to that. I really liked the Bill Nye the Science Guy quote at the end of poem. I never really thought about that until now. It was really inspiring.

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  8. I definitely relate to your small town experience during highschool because before I lived here in Springfield, Lebanon was my hometown. It was so tiny and I felt stuck there, so I moved to Springfield. Also, I enjoy thrifting or going to the flea market and I get so excited when I find a gem!

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  9. when you said "tattered teddy bear" it reminded me that My sister made me a teddy bear which I slept with util i was 7.

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  10. i resonated with the teddy bear part. i collect teddy bears (somewhat) and i have a whole bunch of them. i also had a stuffed toy when i was a child that i loved to pieces then lost :c

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  11. I am the saw way whenever it comes to sleeping late on the weekends and I also love sleeping while its raining.

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  12. I really relate to the domino games around an old table in Oklahoma. When I was younger, my great grandparents and I would play games like dominos and Wahoo. I look back on those times with nostalgia and longing. I also really identify with books on my nightstand, because I always check out way too many books at a time.

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  13. I really related to "photos and scrapbooks and a project always in the works" because there is always some sort of sewing or art project im doing that will take months because i do it in chunks

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  14. I really like the dominoes and sitting around an old kitchen table. The quotes at the end are my favorite quotes

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  15. a beautiful example of the horrid truth and not a beautiful lie,not that you are horrid in any way,this is simply a delightful example which is high praise considering our position in a teacher student relation.

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